Come to my party (in Tokyo)?

Much of Kanagawa Prefecture, like Saitama and Chiba, is so close to Tokyo that it falls under the same broadluy defined metropolitan area. Whenever you see the figure of 30-35 million quoted as Tokyo’s population, they are including much of the population of these surrounding prefectures in the figure. As a result, the journey along the sunny Sagami Bay seafront going east from Odawara gives very little hint of the rural, and the hilly turn northeast to Yokohama begins to feel comfortingly familiar.

Despite having in many ways been absorbed into the insatiable amorphous monstrosity of Tokyo, Yokohama is the second largest city in Japan and still stubbornly retains its own distinct urban atmosphere – slightly faded, slightly more spacious, a bit more room for locally owned businesses to cling onto existence and continue to colour the neighbourhoods.

Musically, Yokohama’s history as an important port city and major source of overseas imports, as well as the postwar history of military bases in the general vicinity, helped contribute to it becoming the jazz capital of Japan. So-called jazz kissaor jazz listening cafés sprung up in the postwar years and into the ‘60s and ‘70s and were influential in the dissemination of new jazz music in Japan from that extraordinary period in the genre’s development. They are crumbling and fading now, as the owners retire and die out, but Yokohama is still home to a disproportionately wide array of bars and live venues specialising in jazz.

Sayuu

As far as rock music goes, Yokohama seems to be in a similar position to Chiba, with plenty of its own venues, clubs and bars, particularly around the busy Kannai area, but generally offering a range of music catering to a narrower range of more mainstream tastes – at least in the realm of rock music. More offbeat or experimental bands like low-key psychedelic postpunk trio Extruders or spiky, acerbic, dryly humourous art-punk duo Sayuu may hail from the general Yokohama area/Kanagawa Prefecture, but nearly all their gigs are in Tokyo.

Extruders (live at Saimyoji temple in Niigata)

Also like Chiba, the seafront area of Kanagawa Prefecture has its own culture of club music, reggae and hip hop, catering to a completely different crowd from the pasty-skinned indie and punk fans I typically encounter when I let my own musical prejudices guide my discoveries. During the summer season when they’re officially open, the beachfront bars of the Shonan area typically throb with club sounds as the bronze-skinned, bleached-haired surfer set descend.

I have vivid memories of taking the train down from Tokyo for an evening of whisper-voiced indiepop at one of the beach bars, with the small crowd of immaculately coutured tweepop kids strikingly out of place amid all the raucous beach bods. It was funny, but it also revealed something often invisible in the music scene: the extent to which social class – something most Japanese deny even exists in the country – defines musical taste. Their hairstyles and the abundance of tattoos the Shonan beach kids carry are very different social signifiers from the predominantly middle-class, university-educated, well-to-do indie kids with their boutique-bought ensembles, although both crowds are in some way marking themselves as something separate from, and inaccessible to mainstream culture.

Shonan also plays host to the live bar and club Oppa-la, near Enoshima Station. An unusual and interesting venue, it often operates at an intersection between club and punk culture, and it’s common for somewhat experimental artists from Tokyo and beyond to descend on Oppa-la for parties that often go on into the early hours of the morning, performing alongside DJs, MCs and other acts from the local area.

For most of the musicians I know in Kanagawa, however, the traffic with the capital is the other way. After arriving in Yokohama and taking a shower, I immediately took the train back the way I had come, as far as Fujisawa. A large town at the opposite end of Sagami Bay from Odawara, I disembarked in one of its quieter suburbs and made my way through the silent early-evening streets to the house where Matthew Guay of indie bands The Oversleep Excuse and Glow and the Forest had recently moved with his family.

The Oversleep Excuse

A musician who had lived in Tokyo for most of his life in Japan, still works there, and plays live almost exclusively there, Matthew had taken the step to move out to the seaside mostly so that he and his wife could buy a house for their family, including two children. Another, related reason was to be closer to the children’s grandparents, who (as with many families in Japan) take an active role in supporting the parents in raising the children.

Glow and the Forest

We sit at his kitchen counter knocking back beers and listening to music while the children mind their own business and grandma sleeps upstairs. Matthew has just got hold of a new demo CD-R by a mutual friend of ours from way back when we were first getting involved in the Tokyo music scene more than ten years previously, Rikinari Hata, who at this point is making synth-based lo-fi EBM/industrial music as Soloist Apartment (he currently goes by the more confrontational sounding Soloist Anti Pop Totalization). Matthew’s Oversleep Excuse bandmate Adam has moved out of Tokyo in the opposite direction, into Saitama, necessitating that they continue to meet up in Tokyo for rehearsals, even if that wasn’t where the band played most of their shows.

Once his wife is home to keep an eye on the kids, we take a walk over to the beach just in time to catch the sunset. It’s still May, so the beach isn’t officially open and the summer beach culture hasn’t yet descended, so we’re able to sit there undisturbed except once, unexpectedly by a coworker of mine from the job from which I’m at this time goofing off, who happened to be marauding the area for his own mysterious reasons. Matthew remarks that he’s lucky that he has the flexibility in his life to still carry on two bands as well as caring for his family. I suggest to him that a lot of the musicians in Kanagawa are in fact transplanted Tokyoites who have moved away from the city to raise families, but whose musical activities are still tied to the networks of friends and connections they had fostered in the capital.

The following night I meet my friends Konatsu and Maru, from the bands Nakigao Twintail and Hakuchi respectively. A different thread connects them to Tokyo. They’re both young musicians from saga in Kyushu, who are using the industrial city of Kawasaki as a jumping-off point in advance of an eventual move to the capital. At this time, Konatsu is still a university student, so she needs to commute to school in Shibuya while Maru must travel to work at an office out in the western suburban fringes of Tokyo. For them, Kanagawa Prefecture is a temporary stopping-off point in a process that will see them shacked up in the urban warrens of Tokyo’s busy Shibuya commercial and entertainment district within a year of my visit.

The third night of my stay in Yokohama is really the first time I get to explore the city itself, rather than dashing out to meet people in its satellites. Moving from the hostel where I’m staying in the backstreets of Ishikawacho, near the tourist areas of Chinatown and the seafront, I make a move over to a hotel in the gentrified former red light district of Koganecho. There, I have lunch at Shichoshitsu Sono 2, an arts centre that has a sister venue in central Tokyo. Containing a series of art studios and a café/bar/bookshop/CD shop/used clothes shop/live venue, it’s a venue I’ve been to before for evening events, including one party I co-organised in the middle of a typhoon and which coaxed out a grand total of two customers. In the daytime, though, it’s a peaceful spot on an attractive riverside promenade where old women from the neighbourhood feel just as confortable dropping by as members of the arts crowd. The Koganecho location didn’t stick around for much longer after my visit, but a fresh “Sono 3” location also in Yokohama has since opened. At the time, however, Shichoshitsu feels like a valuable local cultural hub on the Koganecho area.

I briefly drop by again in the evening for a beer with Kohei from Yokohama-based indie-rock band Come To My Party. Unlike Matthew, Konatsu and Maru, he and his bandmade and drummer Emily are Yokohama locals, but like most of them, his band play primarily in Tokyo.

Come To My Party

One reason for this is that, while indie fans in Yokohama are usually happy enough to take the 30-40-minute train ride into central Tokyo, Tokyo-based fans can very rarely be coaxed out to make the reverse journey. Talking about this situation with Kohei raises the question of, “What’s the more authentic Yokohama music experience: travelling all the way to Tokyo to see the best local Yokohama band, or missing out on all the best local bands because they’re playing all the way over in Tokyo?”

The acoustic blues covers act playing at Shichoshitsu this night wasn’t really our speed, so Kohei suggests moving down the river to Chojamachi. The Chojamachi and Nogacho area lies near the mouth of the same river that runs through Koganecho and just to the north of the main entertainment and commercial district of Kannai. Its narrow, bar-filled alleys are deeply infused with the atmophere of the Showa Period, and in particular the era of post-war reconstruction. Several of the jazz clubs, bars and cafés that Yokohama is famous for are scattered throughout its streets, while hostess bars cluster along the riverside, threatening to spill out over the water itself in places. There’s even a bar that appears to be themed after the goth-tinged British ‘90s alt-rock band Placebo, although we’re both too hungry and afraid to investigate it for ourselves.

Over the course of my journey, I’ve speculated that musical subcultures can transcend location, creating circles of belonging that span hundreds and thousands of kilometres. At the same time, though, just as towering, horizon-obliterating geological forms like Mount Fuji can impose themselves on their surroundings and help define even mundane aspects of existence, the cultural power embodied in the cluster of places we call Tokyo can have a powerful impact (and in subcultures like indie and alternative music perhaps a destructive one) on even a city as large as Yokohama, with all its obvious and distinctive character.

Random violence against objects

Leaving Nagoya and embarking on the final slog eastwards, in many ways it felt as if my journey was over but for some loose ends. It felt like I was entering an epilogue rather than launching into some brave new adventure. Somewhere ahead of me, towering over Shizuoka Prefecture was Mount Fuji, guarding the gateway to the Kanto Plains and, if not exactly home, at least the place I lived.

It was also at around this time that I my attempts at documenting my journey ground to a halt as final drafts of my book Quit Your Band! Musical Notes from the Japanese Underground started filling my inbox and clamouring for my attention. In that book, I focused primarily on my own experiences over the past 10-15 years in the Tokyo music scene, and the shift away from writing up my travel notes every two or three days into blog posts chronicling my journey in real time and towards this seemingly endless, granular process of revisiting my past in a city still several hundred kilometres away, started to give the journey an unreal quality.

The next major stop was to be Hamamatsu to the west of Shizuoka Prefecture, but before that I stopped off for a night in Okazaki, some 40km east of Nagoya. Okazaki is one of those nominally large Japanese cities that you can wander through for hours without ever finding what you might call a “downtown” area. When I eventually found it, looking to kill some time before hotel check-in, it was little more than a short street with a handful of izakayas and bars, all of which were closed at that time of the afternoon. Instead, I found myself taking a lazy bicycle tour along the town’s spacious riverside park and the areas around the castle.

I remember, many months previously, vividly stopping in the countryside of Tohoku and being struck by the almost complete silence. However, in a visibly urbanised, or at least suburbanised area, your definition of silence expands to accept all kinds of sounds because what you are really noticing is the subtraction of many of the sights and sounds you expect from an area like that. A few years previously, walking around my neighbourhood of Koenji on a sunny afternoon in the aftermath of the 2011 earthquake with my wife – this journey’s Mission Control – she remarked on the stillness that had descended on the town, as if we were suddenly the only people left alive in an abandoned city. You can experience that same eerie sense of desolation in hundreds of cities around Japan on any weekday afternoon.

Hamamatsu is far smaller than Nagoya, but it is nonetheless a large, modern city with a bustling centre, where I was able to find an outdoor concert featuring the kind of pleasant, happy music city centres find acceptable as an accompaniment to shopping. My first stop there was Sone Records, a small indie record store that has a reputation for supporting local bands and has some close connections with (and similar tastes to) File-Under Records in Nagoya.

The owner, Kuwaken, was one of the most immediately friendly and open record shop owners I’ve encountered on my travels and pulled a beer out of his fridge as we were talking and slid it over the counter to me. The walls are covered in grafitti from bands who’ve toured through Hamamatsu and dropped by the store, which pays testament to the affection many musicians hold the shop and Kuwaken in. He’d been running Sone Records for seven years by then and, like many small indie operations outside the million-plus population major regional centres, it’s a precarious existence.

Up-Tight

Like many cities of Hamamatsu’s size, there’s a large-ish commercial live venue (Force), a couple of small-ish rock/punk venues (G-Side, Mescaline Drive) and some assorted non-music-specific places such as cafés and the Kamoe Art Center, although the nearby Kirchherr is the one Sone Records has the closest relationship with, Kuwaken often putting on his own events there. He also mentions the venue FM Stage in nearby Iwata, whose PA engineer and manager, Kohei, is the go-to recording engineer for a lot of Hamamatsu bands.

A few of the local indie bands he mentions include psychedelic noise-rock band Up-Tight, post-Supercar indie rock band Me In Grasshopper and soft-voiced singer-songwriter Ryohadano (“There are loads of singer-songwriters around here!” remarks Kuwaken.)

Me In Grasshopper

Probably the hottest Hamamatsu band at this time, however, was probably Qujaku. Starting out under the name The Piqnic, Qujaku combine noise-rock, postpunk and heavy, tribal psychedelia with a sound that feels like it could fill a stadium or arena despite many of their gigs still being in tiny hovels like Kirchherr and Nagoya Bar Ripple. I’d seen them once or twice in Tokyo and, as with similar bands like London-based Japanese psych-rockers Bo Ningen, always been a little uncertain about how seriously to take their bombastic, epic rock, but (also like Bo Ningen) they’d by this point really started to grow into their sound and inhabit it with greater assurance.

Qujaku

They weren’t playing any shows while I’m in town, but on my final night in Hamamatsu I was lucky enough to catch a show by noise act Niwa, visiting from my next destination, Shizuoka City. Niwa’s performances seem to vary from the compact one-man unit I saw at Kirchherr, to larger-scale performance art chaos with drums, guitar and random violence against objects.

The fact an act like Niwa was playing on a bill together with powerpop/guitar rock band Giraffe!Giraffe!Giraffe! is the kind of completely normal thing that almost never happens in Tokyo but which is a natural fact of life in any city with a population of under a million.

Niwa

It was the middle of May, the leading edge of the rainy season was starting to drop teasers for its arrival, the first hints of summer humidity were beginning to settle in the atmosphere, and clouds were gathering over the mountains to the northeast as I set off out of reach of Nagoya’s gravity well and head for Shizuoka City, and then beyond that the Kanto Plains, Tokyo and the end of my journey.

Destruction, re-creation, process

It’s the eve of my departure from Nagoya and I drop by Bar Ripple. It’s a dingy art-punk dive bar and the place that gave Knew Noise Recordings’ Ripplecompilation its name. Situated under the railway tracks in a desolate part of town, near the venues K.D. Japon and Daytrip, punk and garage bands often play there on weekends as a cheaper, more atpmospheric, more intimate alternative to the sometimes pricey and sterile dedicated live venues.

The only people there  are me and the owner, Nobu. I’ve been there once before, several years ago, as a DJ and I’m surprised and pleased that he remembers me. In the background, Nobu is playing movies, starting with the German punk-era film Berlin Super 80, followed by a Simon Fisher Turner collage documentary. There’s something in the cut-up styles of these films – especially the documentary – that increasingly chimes with the way I’ve been experiencing this journey, the relationship of sound to location becoming more and more fractured and fragmented as the places themselves become more interconnected, the borders between one place and the next feeling less and less significant. Partly this may be the more fragmented nature of my journey, with train rides across the mountains and boat trips across the seas diluting my sense of space and then giving way to central and western Japan, where the cities are closer together than in less populated areas like Hokkaido, Tohoku and Hokuriku, their borders interpenetrating, sharing transportation networks and music scenes.

Ohne Liebe Gibt es Keinen Tod / Without Love, There is No Death (from Berlin Super 80)

But maybe it’s also that the longer I’m on the road, the more places become the same. Or rather because of the kind of person I am, the more I instinctively find the same kinds of places, the same kinds of music. Maybe it’s less about borders than it is about the process that takes me from place to place.

As this trip has gone on, I’ve been plotting tentatively a new compilation album for Call And Response, focusing on postpunk and noise-rock – in part influenced by the way Kyoto had reminded me of the Post Flag compilation of Wire covers I’d released eight years previously. In preparation I’ve been trying to write something explaining my feelings about postpunk that has ended up being a sort of manifesto against genre as a strictly defined set of sonic boundaries. At the same time, though, don’t genre boundaries function in some ways like music’s ego? Without them, what is it? What you’re left with then isn’t a sound but a creative process – greater freedom, but a far slipperier sense of identity.

Nobu thinks the best new act to appear in Nagoya recently is Noiseconcrete x 3chi5 and he puts on their recently released album. Hearing them in recorded form for the first time, I realise it’s an album that really encapsulates a lot of the way I’d been thinking about music, and particularly about postpunk. It also helps me to reaffirm exactly why it is that I retain such a strong affection for postpunk so many decades after it ceased to be relevant in most people’s eyes.

Postpunk was a kind of music that was born out of the destructive, back-to-basics punk movement that set itself the task of shattering what it saw as the over-indulgent popular music of its day – prog rock, disco etc. To the extent that it succeeded with a certain number of people, what it left them was not a blank slate but a ruined landscape strewn with fragments. Postpunk was the process of picking up those broken fragments of rock history and, together with influences drawn from then-contemporary music like dub, krautrock, electronic music etc., reassembling them into something new, typically with limited musical ability and a punkish sense of minimalism. To make postpunk now, you would have to recognise an additional 40 years of musical history, and there is no reason to expect that result to sound superficially similar to the sound of Joy Division, Gang of Four or Wire. Instead, it’s that process of reconstructing broken fragments of other music within a minimalist approach, intimately bound up in this tense relationship between destruction and new creation.

Noiseconcrete x 3chi5 (first album digest)

Noiseconcrete x 3chi5 combine trip-hop, noise and industrial music in precisely this tensely balanced, minimalist way, so whatever genre you want to apply to them (all three of the styles I mention above have roots in postpunk in some way, but all of them have grown into their own niche over the years), at least in terms of their process, they’re almost perfectly primed to attract my interest.

The other band Nobu brings up is a lo-fi punk band called Marcela, who he compares to Gang of Four and The Buzzcocks. They’re a band who draw much more directly from the punk era, which tends to be a more superficial attraction for me. As the owner of a live bar, though, it’s in the white heat of live events that Nobu experiences most new local music, and regardless of how original or not something is – regardless of the processthat I make such a big deal out of – in a live environment, it’s the band’s own commitment to the moment that sells it.

We have a listen to a few new bands from Tokyo, and Nobu remarks on the propensity so many bands in the capital have for complex, clinically delivered rhythms. While Nagoya has its own share of these bands (the Stiff Slack scene is more where they congregate), this is something I’ve heard before from friends in Kagoshima, and it really does seem to be a Tokyo thing. Perhaps in a local scene like Tokyo’s with so many underground and alternative bands, it’s an unconscious fear of not doing enough and appearing unsophisticated in the eyes of your peers. In almost any other local scene in the country, the unconscious pressure will be the opposite: the danger of over-egging the music and losing the raw energy that enables you to co-exist smoothly with bands of different genres and their fans.

Like Tokyo, though, Nagoya is a city where it’s easy to be into one particular kind of music and not really know about everything else happening in the town, and as I prepare to leave, I know I’ve left a great deal unexplored – the whole Imaike area where popular venues like Huck Finn and Tokuzo are located, for a start, not to mention ano more of a dozen other venues. Nagoya is also the last city I’ll visit that’s big enough – and which has a music scene isolated and independent enough – for these sorts of comparisons with Tokyo to really work, so despite the long distance remaining, leaving really feels like crossing the last major milestone before my return.

Bloody Tourists

One of the most striking features for me about Nagoya is how it had continued to support a handful of influential independent record stores even as they’ve dried up in other large cities outside the Kanto/Kansai urban sprawls such as Sapporo and Fukuoka.

Record shops have always been one of the most discomforting experiences for me on this trip though. Rarely entering as a customer, thanks to my bicycle’s overflowing side-bags, I always feel as if I’m being placed under scrutiny for my worth. I’m there looking for information, which is a currency in itself within most indie music scenes, but as the owner of a worthy but unpopular record label, I also feel that I’m the source of many of these stores’ woes, or at least petty nuisances – just one more business card for them to chuck in the bin, one more source of pestering emails for them to mark as read and file away.

Life is tough for an indie record store though. They’re businesses with real-world bottom lines like rent, operating in the same physical spaces as coffee shops and pharmacies, while many of their suppliers are self-obsessed dilettantes. The line between selling enough to keep their heads above water and maintaining their independent ethos must be a difficult one to walk.

In the heart of the busy Sakae area of town, Stiff Slack Records is a shop and record label with a reputation for post-hardcore, emo, math rock and other related music. It also operates a bar and at the time of my visit had recently unveiled a new section: a wall of guitar effects pedals, perhaps reflecting the extent to which music’s customers are also its creators.

Slavedriver

The owner, Takuya Shinkawa, is someone I’ve met on a number of occasions prior to this trip, which makes things a little bit easier. His own band, the Albini-esque Slavedriver, have recently put out the album Destruction : Construction, and he recommends the quiet-noisy dynamics of guitar/drum duo Sakura Shock and math rock trio Turalica as strong local bands.

Sakura Shock

Like nearly all record shop owners I’ve spoken to during the course of this trip, Shinkawa has a faintly pained expression when I bring up all the cassettes he has on sale.

“People who like cassettes reallylike them,” is his cautious response. He estimates that 70% of the music he sells is vinyl.

Turalica

A few minutes away, beneath the roaring expressway, lies the Osu area of Nagoya – more of a neighbourhood in the way someone from Tokyo might understand it. It’s here, up several flights of stairs, that File-Under Records is based (it moved in 2018 to a new location, also in the Osu neighbourhood).

Like Stiff Slack, File-Under also has its own associated label, Knew Noise Recordings, although both shop and label have more of an indie bent. It’s also one of a tiny number of record shops around Japan where my own Call And Response releases have managed to gain any sort of sporadic traction. Dealing with the constant begging emails from people like me may have taken its toll though, and at the time of my visit, owner Takehiko Yamada is still recovering from a (probably stress-related) health scare.

Yamada is one of those old-school record store owners who talks to the people who come into his shop, knows their tastes, and is able to tailor his recommendations to each of them. I’ve never been disappointed after following up on one of his tips, and I’ve seen him working the same magic on others in his shop.

Vodovo

When I ask him about what good new bands there are in Nagoya, the first band he mentions is Vodovo, albeit with the qualification that they’re not exactly new. They have their roots in the earlier band Zymotics, who Yamada had released on the excellent Ripplecompilation that Knew Noise put out in 2012. Continuing with a similar gothic-tinged postpunk sound, Vodovo differ from Zymotics by ditching guitar entirely and using two bassists (one of whom they share with the also fantastic noise-punk outfit Nicfit).

The other band he singles out is Ghilom, who have also been around for a while. They share a vocalist with the wonderful new duo Noiseconcrete x 3chi5, albeit with a fuller sound, combining tribal postpunk and Amon Düül II-esque psychedelia.

Ghilom

Both Shinkawa and Yamada are people I’ve met on multiple occasions, and in Yamada’s case done some sort of half-assed business with. The third record store of the trip is one I’ve never been to before: punk record shop Answer Records.

I wander in there and The Cure is playing in the background, which seems like a good omen. It’s a more spacious store than Stiff Slack or File-Under, occupying a basement s few blocks from the latter. The owner is working in the back when I come in, so I wander around a bit, scoping out the sections and seeing how it’s organised before I pluck up the courage to talk to him.

He asks what I’m looking for and I get partway into a clumsy explanation that I can’t buy anything because I’m travelling Japan by bicycle and my bags are already overloaded but the sentence collapses into fragments before I reach the end under a very powerful sense that this is something he really didn’t want to hear. I instantly regret that line of introduction and decide to move on to explaining that I’m a journalist writing about local music scenes.

I move onto my standard question about what local bands he recommends. He hums and haws for a while and then says nothing.

“For example, what’s your favourite local band?”

“Hmm… I can’t answer that.”

“OK, not your favourite. I get it, picking one is difficult. Top five?

“…”

“I want to hear about any good bands from Nagoya.”

“Hmm… No, I can’t.”

“OK, I understand, sorry. I’m writing about each place I visit, so is it OK if I take a couple of photos of this store?”

“Hmm… no.”

While this is the sort of interaction that wouldn’t signify much in most circumstances, it hit me hard. It would be arrogant in the extreme to expect to be welcomed like a hero in every place I enter, but even when people had been grudging or stand-offish, they’d always at least made some sort of effort to be helpful, if only for their own pride’s sake. This was unusual.

My first thought on leaving the shop was a kind of elation. Finally, someone’s been so openly rude to me that I don’t have to feel bad shitting all over them when I write up the trip.

Almost immediately, though, doubts start to creep in. A reasonably old, established record shop like Answer doesn’t survive that long by being a dick to people. Inevitably the guy who runs it is going to be on friendly terms with people, including a fair number of people I know, and their instinctive reaction to anything I write is going to be to wonder what I did wrong.

Having played out that entire scenario in my head, I skip to the self-diagnosis. OK, so I went into his shop like a bloody tourist, with no intention of buying anything, and apparently no knowledge of the music world he operates in, essentially asking him for a shortcut into a certain sector of the underground scene. If you want to buy something, buy something, but if you’re just a dumb tourist on a jolly, let me get back to my work.

More broadly, punk and underground scenes are entitled to a certain degree of snobbery, because that’s a big part of how they protect themselves from homogenisation by aspects of mainstream culture. He wasn’t confrontational or aggressive to me, but those aspects of punk – like the fashion and tattoos – are part of how the culture sets up barriers to entry and maintains its own integrity. When I think about my neighbourhood of Koenji in Tokyo, I have to wonder to what extent I’ve contributed to its watering-down, gushing about it in articles for tourists looking to suck up a bit of authenticity, occupying its punk and underground spaces for my bourgeois indie parties.

Or maybe he was just having a bad day. Or maybe he just didn’t like the look of me. Or maybe I just didn’t get his unique and charming manner. Either way, the encounter brought starkly to the surface the simmering unease that underscores all my interactions with the music scene: I’m a fraud and everyone knows it, but they’re all too polite to let me know.

No, fuck that asshole.

No, it’s definitely my fault.

Round and round it goes.

Nicfit